It feels like my life all it ever feels like is nothing more but a Revolving door.

I have been on this site since 2009 ( @reddraonxd ) and even younger. I keep making new identities, I keep wanting to start from 0 over and over and over again. 1 little mistake and I just kind of, Want to restart. I had accounts from 2019 then I made new accounts from 2021. During this time I lost contact with people because people didn't believe or ignored me but they would listen when I was around as a different identity. I keep doing this to myself, I want to stop it.